Merry Christmas 2010

All the leaves have fallen down…The air is chill… Winter is in full swing…We are all cuddled up inside the house. G and M have come down with a fever. Not too bad(Thank God!), they are getting better.

I love the smell coming out of my kitchen. Yes, I am baking cakes. I think, I am getting better at it.  This is my 4th year in making the traditional fruit cake right from the scratch. I love the look on G’s face when he sees the cake fresh out of the oven. Except for the sick part, it was/is a pretty good week. As G says, “We are enjoying the simple pleasures of life,  kutta” to M and M asks “ What is it, Dada?”. To which he answers,  “Eating Puttu and kadala which mama made for breakfast”. I  felt happy. Yes, these indeed are the simple pleasures of my life , to see the smile on G and M’s face, to laugh hysterically at the silly jokes from M, to pretend that I am upset when G and M teases me, to act silly in front of them , to dance like crazy with M when music is on and so goes the list.

Like every other year, we gave goody bags to our neighbors. I love doing that. This year, M was my big helper in packing the bags . Oh.. I forgot, he was the delivery man. He had his Santa hat on and he pretended to be a Santa and delivered all the goody bags. Thanks M. Since that task is done and  so is my baking, I am relaxed, planning to watch a movie tonight.

 

And I am borrowing this quote to wish you all..

“To a joyful present and a well remembered past. Best wishes for Happy holidays and a magnificent New Year”

A little bit of my life..

I haven't written in a while. There were several things which I could write and had mentally jotted down, but never made it here... I am uberbusy...

Highlights of the recent past..

• M has got used to the homework and new Kindergarten routine ..sigh..
• Our guitar lessons are progressing well..Didn't know that I liked rock music so far…Getting addicted to it...Moved on to scales..Thanks for all the encouragement, G.
• A dear friend is getting engaged.. She is more like a sister to me.. We fight, make up, and fight again..
• Had a nice thanksgiving break..Board games and more board games with G and M...
  That is about it..

Moving on to the recent…

Quoting Plautus  Let us celebrate the occasion with wine and sweet words.

There was no wine...but there sure were sweet words and lots of love in the air. (Any guesses? It was my birthday...). Thank you  all for all the wishes and your love.

I must note this down for us(G and me) to read, may be several years from now..(Too much mushy stuff, eh ?) Anyway..here it goes. This is part of the conversation between me and my brother today.

Chettan(Brother):So, btw what was the gift from Grizel and Madhav. 
  
Me:...But, what touched me most were the words in the card which Griz  gave me (He is usually bad at expressive statements  or romance , right from the years of courtship back in college… )  which says “To my wife, soul mate and my best friend”.

Thank you G and M, it meant a lot to me.

Adios everybody..See you.

This and that...

We were talking. Going over day's happenings and suddenly he became (more) chatty. I think, I have struck the right note. I have been meaning to do so for a while ,but it never worked out. I knew, something was amiss. Whenever I tried, he glided away from me, unwilling to open up. Yeah, I must give him space, but a voice inside me kept telling, "Hey,I can help, only if you open up".

In the weekend, I noticed the obvious tension between them.(Well, I thought it was obvious, but, none took me serious although I mentioned it). Was a tad worried, but thought it is temporal.

Finally, yesterday, here he is, willing to open up. We talked and talked. Jeez, it is complex. It is about how A wants to play with B and C doesn't want to play with A and all that stuff, "pre-k drama" as my friend aptly named it. Yes, I was talking about M. But, I did learn one thing, this is a very important and close-to-heart matter for him. In his small world, this is of utmost important to him. When he told me, "He hurt my feelings by doing that." and leaned back in the chair, I knew it was genuine to the core. I told M that I absolutely understand and I really do, for I am like that too. G delved deeper into his book. (covering up his smile) . Quite a few tears have been drained in my teen years over (silly) things like this :) . However, I never knew that I had to deal with these, this early :).

Anyway, I have promised M to fix things up ... and I hope I will..

Before the Magnolia blooms again...

Life has been going on..I have not keyed in anything for a while. Now, keying this in, inspired by a dear friend of mine(Thank you, if you are reading this).

New year has arrived, oh well, can't say it is new anymore. It has been ups and downs, more downs. Down is a relative term though. So I should restate, I have been not up to the energy/happiness levels, I would like to see myself in. But then they say, man proposes and God disposes.Work has been hectic, chores has been piling up both at work and at personal level. I don't quite feel like me. Hope it is a phase, like I would always console myself when M goes through a problematic phase.

I think, my main frustration comes from the fact that, I have not been in control of my life lately and the control freak in me drives me nuts. Hmm..enough with brooding..

Last weekend was especially nice after a real long time.The previous week, I was at work till late night, returning back to complains from M that "Mama, you are late.You have to tell your manager that you need to take care of me". I nodded with a tired smile, did not even have the strength to reason with him. Pangs of guilt struck me even more..

All of these makes my last weekend extra special. We took M to Chabbot Space Center where they screened a movie "Dinosaurs alive" on Imax. M was truly captivated, being an ardent dinosaur fan. Coming back, G and M made fun of me at my ignorance about dinosaurs. (True, I get confused with the names of all the plant eaters and meat eaters). Some times, I made mistakes purposely, so that M could laugh. M liked it I guess, as the next day, he told me ,
"Mama , let us have laughter time like yesterday". It was a real nice , relaxed weekend.One of the best I had, in a long while.

I hope to be more regular in my postings. No promises, afraid, I may break them.
I will be back with another posting.. before the Magnolia in our backyard blooms ..again..